Yesterday I was watching some concert videos of a couple of the Japanese bands I really like, mainly Arashi and NewS. Watching the Arashi concerts, it occurred to me that it made me feel so joyful to watch them that despite how difficult it would be to get to one (and how expensive!) that I truly wanted to see them perform live. It was a weird feeling last night realizing that I deeply wanted to fly to Japan just to see a concert (not that I wouldn't do other things while I was there).

I was slightly aware that they were actually about to tour because I had seen fan goods being sold on other LJs and I thought to myself, that's awesome, surely I will miss them on my trip next month... I'll have to plan it sometime in the future. Then I looked at the dates and I realized that they are playing the last weekend I am there. I've read about attending these shows before and from what I understand they only sell tickets to people in their fan club. I'm distinctly aware of the fact that this is the 10 year anniversary show for them and that ticket prices are through the roof if you can get them at all. So despite the timing, I am not sure if I can go.

Seems strange at my age to dream about going to see a concert in Japan and truly feeling like it would be achieving a life goal to go, even though it's just entertainment. I laughed to Niero last night about how inappropriate it is. After all, this music is geared at young people. And then we got to talking about how things you enjoy correspond to your age ... and how it really shouldn't matter what you enjoy at any age.

I've come to realize lately at 32 I'm struggling to understand who I am just as much as I was at 22. How odd and humbling that is.

Looking through my usual LJ communities this morning and I came across this picture of the NewS boys ... extremely amused to see that Yamapi is wearing a New Orleans t shirt (and a misspelled one at that)! It put a much needed smile on my face.

Feeling down lately about lack of social activity. Talked to Niero about it but things with Destructoid are always challenging at this time of year, so I don't know how much he can really help me out. I think I need to start being more active about reaching out to find more things to do. It's hard to put my finger on what's wrong with me, but I'm sure it'll clear up eventually.

Uhh.....

*drops drink on floor*

Shirtless YamaPi equals happy day!